My baby arrived in late August. During our first week home together, the air turned crisp with the feeling that autumn was approaching. Summer was ending; a new season upon us.
I could not escape the feeling that life was changing. My second pregnancy was over, life as a family of three was over. The end was here along with a new beginning; life with a new addition to our family and a slower pace set by my newborn’s needs and my recovery from birthing him.
Meanwhile, that crisp air of autumn reminded me of everything waiting ahead. This period of moving slow would only last so long, I knew full well that I was embarking on a new season in both my work of motherhood and my work of running a business.
I felt so many things at once. Nostalgia and longing for the way things were, coexisting with excitement and anticipation for the plan ahead, eager to see how it would all unfold. That’s the thing about transitions. A change, such as the birth of a child, marks the beginning and end all at once, but it takes time to walk the transition – from letting go of what was, to figuring out what’s next, and ultimately embarking on a new season in life.
In these first weeks since my son was born the pace of life has slowed. Despite the endless diaper changes, hours of breastfeeding, and sleep deprivation that fill my days, this time has given me a chance to reflect on business and plan ahead.
I'm left with more ideas than time. But I know it's a blessing in disguise. One of the strengths motherhood has given me is focus. Rather than let my head spin with all the ideas I may never get to, I'm gaining the ability to sort through all the noise, prioritize, and make the most of the time I have.
Today's focus is simple and a little more personal. I'd like to share an update with you on the arrival of my son.
Our little guy arrived just moments before I hit 41 weeks. Labour was steady for 21 hours and finished fast and furious - the hardest work I'll ever do in my life. I was lucky my obstetrician made it to the delivery. She was with us for only 15 minutes! I was much more tired this time around. In a moment of rest between contractions, I joked to my husband, "I just keep thinking that once this is over I can sleep. But we both know that sleep isn't going to happen for awhile." I'm finding comfort in the wisdom of being a second time mom; my expectations are much more realistic. After two nights in the hospital we arrived back at home to a birthday party organized by my toddler who seemed more eager to eat the cake than meet his new little brother.
We're glad to find he's a pretty content baby who goes with the flow of our lives. Some days feel more chaotic than others, but I'm happy to report we've found our way to a place of organized chaos.
Now that we're settled into our new normal, I'm gearing up to take Shift into its second year of operation. I'm eager to build momentum and share my story with you as I continue to grow this business and my little family.
I am so thrilled for what’s to come. The leaves are turning to golden yellow now. It’s the season of pumpkin spiced everything, cozy sweaters, and snuggles under blankets. New business projects are ripe for the taking. But for now I’m balancing all my plans and big ideas with soaking in all the newborn snuggles and moments of growth for my family as we adjust to our new dynamic.